Saturday, February 28, 2009

I blame this on the economy.

This morning I woke up in a panic. I just felt so overwhelmed by everything. More people at work have been laid off, which freaks me out. It meant two days of saying goodbyes and talking to them about the future. They have all seemed to take it as a blessing in disguise. As the push they needed to take a leap and jump right into the thing they knew they should have been doing, but were to afraid to try.

It got me thinking about my life. What is it that I am supposed to be doing. What am I too afraid to try? I hate these questions. They are friggin' TERRIFYING and they make me want to cry, because I'm not sure what the answers are.

All I know is that I feel like I need a change. Something to kick me and force me to adapt to something new. I find myself thinking more and more about moving away to a new city and starting a whole new life, just to see what would happen without the safety net. I really wonder how I would handle it... but I think I might be too afraid to find out.

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